Closing in on two years ago I met my RP coach for the first time in a chance meeting through my personal trainer. That first night something clicked for me in our near half hour conversation and I realized that he was the missing piece in my wellness journey.
To that point, I spent a year working on the mental aspects and building the habit of walking into the gym one night per week for my training session.
Being a lifelong emotional eater, I knew that I had to change my relationship with food in a way that was a lifestyle change and not based on any fad diet. I knew that I would rebel against any program that told me I couldn’t have my beloved chocolate or wouldn’t allow me to indulge in the culinary events I so enjoy. This is no easy feat by any stretch to accomplish. The thing with food is it is a necessity to survive and when you have a poor relationship with it; be it an addiction, emotional eating habits or an eating disorder, food is always around. For me being an emotional eater, always having access to my “fix” made life easier during emotional times of celebration or riding the proverbial emotional roller coaster.
My RP coach has enabled me to look hard at my relationship with food and, together, we came up with an initial plan of attack to get me through the first 100 pounds; of which we accomplished in January of 2018 and I am proud to say I have maintained that weight loss for the past ten months. The biggest thing has been focusing on creating calorie deficits and building up healthier coping mechanisms. I log every meal and snack in Myfitnesspal and while some days I am not proud of the entries I need to make, every one of them goes in there because if you cannot be honest with yourself, first and foremost, and the coach who is trying to work with you; then you have to really take a hard look at if you are ready to commit to the journey.
He has taught me to take it one meal, one snack, one day, one week at a time. The emotional eating demons still come to the surface and sometimes I lose that battle. The biggest lesson I am learning is that just because one meal or one day has gone astray, doesn’t mean the whole journey is a write-off. I have had to be open to learn every step of the way; realizing that the old crutches are going to be there but I am also becoming better at handling situations that arise.
I am beyond blessed to have a coach, and now dear personal friend, who has helped enable me to want so much more for myself than I thought I deserved.